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Easy enough right? Not today. Not yesterday. Tomorrow is not looking good either. I’m not sure why, but I seem to have lost interest in my blog. Maybe it was a summer fling.

The fall is working its way back and I love the fall. The crisp days made for hiking, bread ready to be baked, fruit waiting for a pie. Don’t forget the yarn to be made into mittens and this year I’m looking forward to making cheese. I’m always so productive in the fall. I feel most alive in the fall. Staring at a computer screen isn’t cutting it for me. It’s starting to feel like a chore.

I am remembering why I walked out of my high paying computer job seven years ago. I told them I wasn’t coming back until I ran out of money. They smiled and said - you’ll be back, you know where to find us. I wonder if my feminine hygiene products are still in the bottom drawer of my desk.

I love the challenge of learning new things. That’s why I made more money than some of the guys twice my age. I knew about everything that the customers wanted. I was young, I was cute, and I was very good at making people want to do business with us. I had great friends at the almost completely male office. I was one of the guys. They told me so. But something changed.

I stood there in the lobby, 9 months pregnant, watching the temp in her short skirt trying to find the w key on the typewriter (No joke!) and realized I was not coming back. I had no interest in writing one more script. No interest in configuring one more server. No interest in ever learning another new program language.

I hid under a rock with mommy written all over it for the next seven years. I liked being under that rock. It was cozy and warm and safe. It took some time, but I found out what I liked about myself. I found things that I enjoyed just because I enjoy them. Not because I got paid for them or because I wanted to impress somebody.

That’s why I was shocked when I found myself so strongly pulled back into that world the day I hit publish on my first post. Things have changed a lot in the last seven years. So many new things to learn about. I wanted to know it all. I was enjoying it. It was fun, but I am not enjoying it anymore.

I don’t think I’ll completely give up my blog. I’ll still post to it on occasion but it won’t be an everyday occasion. I’m still going to come by and put stupid comments on your posts. And, I’ll probably get a few books from the library and teach myself about some of the new things out there. But, right now, I need to bake bread and knit mittens. I need to cuddle up with my girls and read Harry Potter or Little House on the Prairie. I need to jump into piles of fall leaves and drink hot chocolate. I need to get back to what makes me happy.

I hope you understand. Actually, I’m sure you’ll understand. The people that read my blog are wonderful beautiful people. I’m happy that I had the chance to get to know you in a weird digital age kinda way. :) That is something that makes me happy. No doubt about that.